Inspired by Michelle Carter and Conrad Roy III (HBO doc "I Love You, Now Die" and Hulu original series "The Girl From Plainville")
Conrad Henri Roy III (September 12, 1995 – July 13, 2014) was an American teenager who died by suicide at 18. His girlfriend, 17-year-old Michelle Carter, encouraged him in text messages to kill himself. The case was the subject of a notable investigation and involuntary manslaughter trial in Massachusetts, colloquially known as the "texting suicide case." Commonwealth v. Michelle Carter involved scores of text messages, emails, and phone calls recorded between Carter and Roy in the leadup to his death, in which Carter repeatedly pressured Roy to kill himself. Roy had seen numerous mental health professionals and had been prescribed psychiatric medication. The case raised questions pertaining to the nature and limits of criminal responsibility. Lawrence Moniz, the judge assigned to Carter's criminal trial, concluded that Carter wanted Roy dead and that her words coerced him to kill himself. Carter was convicted of involuntary manslaughter, chiefly on the basis of her final phone call in which she ordered a scared Roy to go back inside his truck as it filled with carbon monoxide.
lyrics
No one understands me
No one even tries
I can feel the darkness
Growing up inside
Everyday I wake up
And I wonder why
I’m even alive
Everybody hates me
I always get it wrong
No one’s even listening
What if I was gone?
Always been a failure
Why’m I holding on
I think I belong
There on the other side
I’ve had enough of this life
Let go and close my eyes
Take me tonight
Take me tonight
No one even likes me
They barely play pretend
All I’ve ever wanted
was to have a friend
You can lean on me now
We can make a plan
Your sadness will end
Can’t you see it hurts me
Every time you try
Say you really mean it
But you’re still alive
I want you to be happy
I want you in my life, but
I’ll help you to fly
(Help me to fly to the)
There on the other side
You’ve (I’ve) had enough of this life
Let go and close your (my) eyes
Take me tonight (I’ll take you tonight)
Take me tonight (but let’s do this right)
I am afraid
(Just keep going you’re almost there)
Please won’t you stay
(Don’t you worry, I’ll be right here)
I love you (I love you)
I love you (I love you)
It’s never goodbye
(I love you, now die)
Conrad?
You’re on the other side
There’s no more dark, only light
Reach up and touch the sky
It’s never goodbye
It’s never goodbye
It’s never goodbye
credits
from Round 36, Week 9,
released April 25, 2022
music and lyrics by William Nesmith
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